i keep saying sorry to those who care, even though i know that it’s not gonna lessen the hurt one bit. indecisiveness and ‘soft-heartedness’ on my part has caused many problems and pain which would not be present now if i had made my stand more clearly at the start. instead, i let myself be swayed by emotions, dragging on and on, and letting these problems snowball to the way they are now. it’s not that i don’t feel regret and remorse, but adding to those, i also feel confused, unsure, insecure, and having mixed feelings. i don’t seem to know myself and what i really want anymore. if only i could, i’d wish to turn back time and not bring so much hurt upon you. but there aren’t any what-ifs and if-onlys in this world. all i can do is apologize.